NDE Accounts

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Young mother has OOB and conversation with being during surgery 11 Dec 2019
Teenager has OOB after drug overdose (caution: profanity) 11 Dec 2019
Man meets grandmother during panic attack near-death 11 Dec 2019
New Zealand girl learns from epilepsy near-deaths 13 Nov 2019
Teen wishes for death, but is shown who she really is 24 Oct 2019
Life Review: Exchanging Loving Kindness with All 07 Oct 2019
Begged to return to care for his babies 09 Sep 2019
Comparison of near-death and drug-induced experiences 09 Sep 2019
Troubling after-effects following aborted dark NDE 09 Sep 2019
I snapped back into my life as a different version of myself 22 Aug 2019
Young woman sees herself in the morgue 21 Jun 2019
Man visits hell hole after dying of sepsis 15 Jun 2019
Sleeping man goes to heavenly library but it's not his time 10 Jun 2019
New mother feels loved beyond comprehension 10 Jun 2019
Suicide attempt NDE followed by increased intuitiveness, etc. 19 Apr 2019
Scary spirits plague woman who drowned at age 3 19 Apr 2019
Life Review: Exchanging Loving Kindness with All 15 Apr 2019
Many experiences in and out of body, living with genetic syndrome 11 Apr 2019
Surfing accident reveals unknown mercy to young woman 09 Mar 2019
Brief out of body on ceiling of operating room 04 Mar 2019
Woman feels she's been given the meaning of life 04 Mar 2019
Young woman dies of a broken heart but now knows her friend lives 15 Feb 2019
Anti-theist youth hears God's voice 21 Jan 2019
Teen sees patient in adjacent room while out of her body 15 Jan 2019
The Most Important Assignment in Life is Love 11 Jan 2019
Mother's NDE and premonitions of children's deaths 08 Jan 2019
A connection to all the knowledge there is in the universe 26 Dec 2018
There is no "I" since five NDEs from age four 26 Dec 2018
My trip to hell; saved by a little angel 22 Nov 2018
Suddenly I remembered EVERYTHING - who I was, what my life was about, what home was 20 Nov 2018
Mother believed stabbed son was dying but chaplain didn't 03 Nov 2018
Teenager communicates with identical twin from coma/NDE 14 Oct 2018
Man's NDE at work allows him to help his mother cross over 14 Oct 2018
Childhood NDE followed by precognitive dreams/visions and UFO/alien writings 04 Oct 2018
The real world is much more wonderful and complex 17 Aug 2018
Unconditional love washed over me like a huge wave 01 Aug 2018
Fifteen-year-old girl has panoramic view of accident 30 Jul 2018
Apocalyptic vision during high fever 30 Jul 2018
Teenager in UK out of body into light 23 Jul 2018
Love was what everything was made of, came from, and returned to 14 Jul 2018
Saved from allergic reaction by otherworldly figure 02 Jul 2018
I now communicate with conscious-energies in the Energic Conscious Continuum 27 Jun 2018
Start over in another lifetime or continue on in this one? 14 May 2018
Saved by my beautiful tender soft wise cat 06 May 2018
I helped resuscitate another man while I was in a coma 29 Apr 2018
Tall spiritual being sat me on his knee 05 Apr 2018
New Zealand school girl meets mother figure in The Real Place 19 Mar 2018
Hit by a 122 rocket in Viet Nam 15 Mar 2018
Caesarean Section NDE in 1979 Scotland 07 Jan 2018
Don't move out of the light or you will never leave this place 28 Dec 2017
Tickled to meet man who said "Come" 28 Dec 2017
Two sleep apnea OBEs as a teenager 15 Dec 2017
Go and tell everyone that I love them! 14 Dec 2017
Mommy, why didn't you keep me? 14 Dec 2017
It held all the knowledge that ever was or will be 23 Nov 2017
I knew my own Separateness and also Oneness with every thing 21 Oct 2017
Encountering the Essence of Compassion 12 Oct 2017
Sees Jesus during bad trip 12 Aug 2017
Your heart stopped for a minute there, but we got you back 16 Jul 2017
Someday, my experiences will all add up and make sense 02 Jul 2017
I was told this life would be catastrophic 03 May 2017
OOB following suffocation (in German) 27 Apr 2017
I watched, not realising the body on the floor was mine 05 Apr 2017
Everything is Life 28 Mar 2017
The void, my grandmother, and God change the way I see life 18 Mar 2017
The older gentleman and his son were together again 18 Mar 2017
Out of body during asthma attack and later surgery 27 Feb 2017
It is here in our bodies that the lessons of love are made manifest 17 Feb 2017
I remember my brother screaming, though I was not breathing 08 Feb 2017
Everything is always how it's supposed to be 31 Jan 2017
Basking in a pool of love 25 Jan 2017
He would respect my decision either way 05 Jan 2017
It marked the trajectory of my life 05 Jan 2017
Love and avoid the rat race 05 Jan 2017
Tainted water leads to unconditional love 05 Jan 2017
Prayers Like Musical Notes 05 Jan 2017
I am a bird, and thus starts my life 16 Nov 2016
Golden skulls, people, stars, darkness 08 Nov 2016
Heard many voices above her, from her body 08 Nov 2016
Terror, then feeling safe and secure 08 Nov 2016
Locked inside a freezer 08 Nov 2016
Liver failure shows me all animals and plants have souls 12 Oct 2016
Pulmonary embolisms took me to the gates of heaven and Jesus 11 Oct 2016
Sixty years in heaven, thirty minutes earth time 23 Sep 2016
Euphoria way beyond crack cocaine 16 Sep 2016
Concentrate on breathing and opening your eyes 25 Aug 2016
Growing up without love 24 Jun 2016
Saw great grandparents who passed long before she was born 20 May 2016
Kundalini brought him near death 11 May 2016
They looked at me with such love and kindness 09 May 2016
Healed at luminous white dome-shaped room 03 Apr 2016
Big Beautiful Grass Flowing 29 Mar 2016
Immersed in Pure Love 28 Mar 2016
I May Have Ignored The Guardian Angels 22 Feb 2016
My Journey to The 'Other Side' 19 Feb 2016
Heaven's Green Room 18 Feb 2016
Original Contract was Complete 18 Feb 2016
My Babies 18 Feb 2016
Petrified of Death After Dental Appointment 18 Feb 2016
From Lightning to Enlightenment 07 Feb 2016

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Woman, abused as infant, has NDE after-effects

When I was approximately two years old, my father looked at me one day and decided he wanted to “be the first”. He raped me as an infant. Many years later, when he was beginning to show signs of dementia, someone spoke to him about how he should treat me. His response was, “She’s my daughter and I’ll do what I want with her,” and then proceeded to tell the above story (in more graphic detail). This came back to me more than a year after that conversation, and after he had passed.

I have no conscious memory of that event from my infancy. However, I have known since my 20s that something of that nature had happened to me. I knew it because my emotional and physical responses in certain situations were classic sexual-abuse-victim reactions. I knew it because of “cellular memory”: my body knew, even though my mind didn’t. I spent many years in therapy, reading, and self-evolutionary work, trying to figure it out, trying to remember what happened to me. It wasn’t until my father’s late-life “brag” (that was his point, to demonstrate his “rights”) was relayed to me that I finally had an answer. I was then in my 50s. But I still have no conscious memory of the event.

When I started attending the Tucson IANDS presentations, I was fascinated. To know what was on the other side, to hear others’ personal accounts, was at once uplifting and reassuring, intellectually engaging and emotionally supportive. I joined IANDS, and was further delighted to start receiving their “Monthly NDE” reports. Recently I came across a couple of them that really caught my attention.

One talked about NDEs in children, written by P.M.H. Atwater. She spoke of how “children compensate”. Rather than deal with their experience, they adjust other things around it; that even into mature years, the puzzle is often not solved. They “begin abstracting (dealing with broad conceptual ideas), are smarter than their parents, school teachers, friends”. “They forever miss HOME, the greater collective they know is real.” She says 90% are unable to bond with their parents. She continues: “Typical characteristics afterward: heightened senses, vivid imagination, intellectual curiosity and drive, psychic/intuitive, loneliness, higher I.Q., deep capacity to care, great potential for an ethical path, aware of future moments, strongly independent even if shy, nonlinear development. The younger the child, the greater the jump in I.Q., [and] the ability to abstract.” They are “doers with good ideas, inventions, and the energy to get jobs done”. They have a heightened consciousness, and a tendency to nerve-stomach-skin sensitivity.

These things all represent aspects of myself. I never felt particularly close to any of my family. (I’m not even sure what “bonding” with a parent might actually be.) I never thought I was smarter than average, until I had more experience with a broader range of people – and then it became clear to me: my comments were often over the heads of other people. My thoughts and ideas were often complex and fairly advanced in logic and principle, and went unnoticed (at best) or ridiculed (at worst). I am very resourceful and can often come up with unique ways to deal with a problem or situation. I am a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP) as defined by Dr. Elaine Aron. I am intuitive and perceptive of people’s emotions and intentions. I can often “see” likely outcomes of present actions. I can often tell when someone is lying. I have a strong sense of history and how it connects everything, as well as my own participation in many time periods. I have had several Spiritually Transformative Experiences (STEs), mostly regarding my own past lives. And I have an awareness of a broader future for humanity and the planet.

A different Monthly NDE mentions the writer’s “excruciatingly painful awareness”, a “feeling of desolate isolation from my real existence”. I have always felt a deep, profound, and painful sadness, just from living on the physical plane, never feeling a part of this place, never feeling “at home”. I know things about how this life works that most other people don’t seem to be aware of, things in terms of personal interactions, repercussions, and energetic flow. At least, sometimes.

Other times I am clueless as to social norms and acceptable behaviors, or what some enigmatic comment is supposed to convey. And yet I was never able to utilize my sensitivities for anything other than personal evolution. It did not help me find jobs or friends, I never felt “successful”, either monetarily or socially. I have never had sufficient certainty of my ideas to help others by way of predictions or information regarding their own lives. All I can do is give my own thoughts and impressions as suggestions, and if they accept what I say, it may help them to understand their circumstances or make their own choices. Often, however, they do not. I sometimes feel like Cassandra of Greek mythology, cursed to give true prophecies which nobody ever believes.

In this second Monthly NDE, the writer says she has no memory of the experience, she simply “knew” that she had been on another plane of existence, and had been forced or somehow persuaded to return to her physical body. This really woke me up. “Having no memory of the experience” is the same way I describe my own sexual assault: I have no conscious memory of it, yet I “know” it happened. This led me to what felt like a revolutionary concept: perhaps I had, as a result of rape at a very early age, left my body and experienced an NDE. For reasons at which I can only guess, my memory of the physical event and my retreat out of my body – and whatever happened on the other side – had been erased. I would guess that this was done to protect me and help me survive.

The emotional pain, shyness, reluctance to socialize, constant anxiety, and fear for my protection and future have been with me as long as I can remember. I have always known that I had to take care of myself, I could rely on nobody else for my physical, mental, or emotional wellbeing. Over the course of more than 60 years, that intuition has been borne out, and continues to be true.

I have always had a deep need and respect for the truth, beyond what most others would act on, even to my own detriment in terms of money or personal cost. If you don’t have truth, I felt, you don’t have anything. My mother’s description of me, as told to the mother of a friend of mine, was “very independent”.

Despite crippling shyness, I was compelled to utilize my musical talents in singing and acting. I have a number of stomach/digestive issues, and I am physically very sensitive. (I.e., things that are very painful to me would go unnoticed by many.) I have always tried to help others, though my efforts were often misunderstood. I feel a visceral pain at cruelty or subjugation of any kind, to anyone, whether I know them or not. I have always championed the underdog in most any situation or society at large, including (especially!) the animal kingdom.

My empathic abilities seem to be very sharp, yet indistinct. I can be overwhelmed by feelings that often make no sense to me, if I happen to notice. More often, I get totally lost in the emotion and react to that, and I don’t notice that it likely comes from people or circumstances around me. This is complicated by my own, often very strong, emotions. It took me decades to realize this was happening, and I am still learning how to differentiate and identify sources (me or not-me).

I describe this laundry list of “after-effects” as the only evidence of my NDE. It may seem like I’m jumping to conclusions, but that is the nebulous nature of my attributes and abilities. I have only my intuition to go on. It may sound self-absorbed, yet that seems to be my purpose here in this lifetime. My constant goal throughout my life has been to improve myself as a human being and increase my spiritual awareness. Everything else was secondary. (I was once told by a numerologist that I was hoping to make this my last incarnation.) For the most part, the only real achievements I have made during my life have been in introspection, self-realization, and personal evolution. And perhaps those are no small achievements. So, make of it what you will. If my story helps anyone else in their own journey, that will be a whole new kind of success for me.

Greeted by vibrantly-colored spirit guides and guardian angels

I was involved in a horrific three-car motor vehicle accident on Sunday, March 8th, 2020. Doctors told me that I am fortunate to be alive and that most people involved in a head-on collision such as mine don’t survive it. 

I am writing to you in part to process what I experienced during my accident and also try to find some answers or understanding about what happened to me. 

The accident occurred in front of my eldest daughter's home. I turned on my left-hand blinker, slowed down, and noticed a white car traveling extremely close behind me. I proceeded to slow down while going East on the residential street and felt the white car hit me from behind. That caused my car to spin out of control and forced me to go over the divider into oncoming traffic proceeding Westbound where I was hit again head-on. I lost consciousness after the second impact. When my daughter approached my car she mentioned that when she first saw me after the accident my eyes were a distinctive blue-white 'haze' and a type of milky color in my eyes. She saw me slumped over the steering wheel making a gurgling sound and not breathing.  

What I saw was myself being tossed back and forth in the car with a cloud of white smoke surrounding me, which I assume was the airbag deploying, but I was not connecting with the person in the driver's seat at the time. While I was observing myself in the car, I noticed the color of the t-shirt as the most brilliant magenta color and finally realized the person in the car was me, because I specifically wore that t-shirt for comfort and it’s one of my favorite t-shirts. As I was connecting that the person in the driver seat was me, at that moment I was literally out of my physical body. Next, I observed me slumped over the steering wheel and then I felt my body floating away from the inside of my car and I started rising above my car.

I had the most incredible feeling of oneness and joy and absolutely no pain at all. I can’t really describe it, but I could see everything around me, under me, above me and behind me. While I was fascinated with this concept and trying to understand what I was experiencing I noticed there were five to six of what I believe were my guardian angels and spirit guides that were waiting for me within the most indescribable light surrounding them. The brilliant colors are hard to describe, but they were mostly orange hues with yellow streams of light behind them. The colors were so vibrant and gorgeous. It felt like they were waiting for me to attend a kind of celebration. While I was observing this amazing scene, I thought of my family and instantly with great force and speed I was sucked back into my body, gasping for air, and started feeling the most excruciating pain. 

After eight weeks of recovering, I have gained a new perspective on life. I can honestly say I feared death and the unknown before my accident, but due to my experience, I have lost the fear of death. I have a new sense of what my purpose is and my spirituality has strengthened. I also tended to be a bit shy and not speak up or express myself; however, I found my voice and now have the ability to express my feelings more often. I am a doula and I cherish serving babies and their families and yet again it’s given me an increased awareness to serve and love my family and friends more often. 

Young mother drowns in sailing accident

It was a windy day for sailing our 18’ “Flying Dutchman” sailboat with 3 onboard, my husband at tiller, his father (crew) and I was attached to a “trapeze” for ballast.  My harness was velcroed to my waist with a “quick release” toggle (the trapeze wire was attached to top of mast).

My husband asked his dad to lean back for more ballast as a gust hit our sails. Dad leaned forward and the boat capsized, and I found myself trapped under 15’ of water.   My harness would not disconnect. I panicked and expelled all my air (after about 30 seconds of struggling with the harness).  I also clearly remember I sucked in a lot of water in my lungs and shortly after gave up fighting my drowning and “gave in” to death.  

At that point I vividly remember seeing a white light. I felt absolutely calm, happy, eager to join the other dying people going to the light. I felt family members (ie, Grandmother, Grandfather) with me, helping me, guiding me.  I remember other souls, more white in appearance and winged (ie, angels) helping me.  As I approached the end of this tunnel to the light, I heard a clear male voice say to me, “Go back, it’s not your time, you have a son to take care of.” My son was about a year old at the time.

Those words jarred me back to my bad situation but gave me strength to fight some more, and at the same time my husband began to dive down with a mouthful of air to “buddy breathe” me to wellness.  He also got my harness to release (on third dive down), and I bolted to the water's surface to find I was under the boat, breathing stale air!  I dove down again, through ropes and sails, to finally reach the surface to breathe “that blue air.”

I was under the water for almost 3 minutes, according to my husband and his father.

I will never forget this NDE and feel blessed to know how pleasant the next stage will be (after my death).  I am not afraid, have experienced a few close calls with my health since then, still not afraid. I also believe and read and practice constantly spirituality, meditation, compassion, etc., trying to make sense of this event.

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