Begged to return to care for his babies

I was run over by a 5 ton truck the first day on the job. I died waiting on help to arrive in a policeman's lap as he tried saving me.

I died but remained above my body looking down…feeling sad as I was drawn toward the light above me. I felt 3 feet from my body and just as close to the light. The light spoke to me, telling me in a human voice it was time. I believe I was returned because I had only thought of my children ,I pleaded please my babies, I need to raise my babies, I had a 2yr old and a 3-4 yr old, The light spoke, “if you return you won't like it.” Please I pleaded again. On my 3rd plea for my babies, I was returned with the words, “you won't like it,” “So be it.” I was back in my body, screaming in pain. I watched them working on my body, shocking my heart. The 3rd shock, I returned.

I withdrew from family, felt worthless, had a need to feel the feeling that I felt while dead. As time passed I lost love toward my wife, a fight she held onto for another 16 yrs until our kids were raised. We are divorced.

I no longer fear death. When I was dead, I felt the greatest peace. At 55, I know it won't be long now until I return.

Comparison of near-death and drug-induced experiences

My first ND type experience came when I was about 17 or 18 and I took a dose of magic mushrooms. Truffles. I left the ego and the painful stories of my life. Existing without a body, unlocatable and deeply peaceful. Totally present. Then I had the experience of realising this was an experience caused by drugs and I would have to return to my normal existence. This was painful.

My next experiences: I'm again calling them near death type experiences but in fact I can't be sure how close to death my body was. My guess is not very close to bodily death. But noticing the connection between these experiences and my actuaI near to death experience I am including them. I had taken large doses of Ketamine on 2 or 3 different occasions and the experience was of complete disassociation with the body and loss of consciousness of the body. I was in the state known as a k hole. Unaware of my surroundings but still breathing. I experienced myself as feeling light and of spirit not form. On my first experience I was talking with a voice which I assumed was God. He was familiar and recognisable and reminded me of myself somehow. I was full of questions about meaning of life and why I existed. I was shown that things are not as they seem and the vital importance of space and non existence. I found the lessons hard to understand and along with a realisation of unity and feeling of being all alone, it was a bit overwhelming.

The experiences were amazing, showing me how everything is made from the same energy and also time is not as it seems. I saw things which haven't come to be yet and some that already have. 

My actual near to death experience was after a methadone and alcohol overdose. I was discovered turning blue, barely breathing and non-responsive. I needed two injections of another drug to stabilise me. I remember an experience of going through a lot of emotions and fear and then suddenly I was in the unlocatable indescribable peace and love which I have always been looking for, and not just in it; I was it. I felt great joy, peace, relaxation, and calm. And the feeling there was nothing to worry about in the first place. I was given choice to return to body and my life. I didn't want to but I was shown the effects it could have on my family, me dying in this way, and I felt a need to return.

Troubling after-effects following aborted dark NDE

I was in labour in my first pregnancy and was told they were going to prepare me for a C-section after my 72-hour induced labour process.