I could no longer hear the hospital room sounds. I was aware that I was surrounded by a purple colour and existed in what can be described as misty energy. I didn't have a body, but seemed to exist as a light bluish energy. I felt the most overwhelming sense of belonging, like I had come home. It was pure love, just pure existence in love. It is very difficult to describe in words the intensity of that feeling. I was aware that behind me were other energy beings, people whom I knew so well, like I had really come home. I felt so happy and wanted to turn around to greet them, but I got the message--there were no words or touch--that no, now is not the right time. I felt them gently guiding me back.
I was instantly back in the delivery room with another contraction. It has taken me nearly 14 years to be honest with myself and realise that this was very real and not, as I originally had been led to believe, a hallucination induced by the fact that I had Pethadine as a pain reliever during labour.