NDE Accounts

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Basking in a pool of love 25 Jan 2017
He would respect my decision either way 05 Jan 2017
It marked the trajectory of my life 05 Jan 2017
Love and avoid the rat race 05 Jan 2017
Tainted water leads to unconditional love 05 Jan 2017
Prayers Like Musical Notes 05 Jan 2017
I am a bird, and thus starts my life 16 Nov 2016
Golden skulls, people, stars, darkness 08 Nov 2016
Heard many voices above her, from her body 08 Nov 2016
Terror, then feeling safe and secure 08 Nov 2016
Locked inside a freezer 08 Nov 2016
Liver failure shows me all animals and plants have souls 12 Oct 2016
Pulmonary embolisms took me to the gates of heaven and Jesus 11 Oct 2016
Sixty years in heaven, thirty minutes earth time 23 Sep 2016
Euphoria way beyond crack cocaine 16 Sep 2016
Concentrate on breathing and opening your eyes 25 Aug 2016
Growing up without love 24 Jun 2016
Saw great grandparents who passed long before she was born 20 May 2016
Kundalini brought him near death 11 May 2016
They looked at me with such love and kindness 09 May 2016
Healed at luminous white dome-shaped room 03 Apr 2016
Big Beautiful Grass Flowing 29 Mar 2016
Immersed in Pure Love 28 Mar 2016
I May Have Ignored The Guardian Angels 22 Feb 2016
My Journey to The 'Other Side' 19 Feb 2016
Heaven's Green Room 18 Feb 2016
Original Contract was Complete 18 Feb 2016
My Babies 18 Feb 2016
Petrified of Death After Dental Appointment 18 Feb 2016
From Lightning to Enlightenment 07 Feb 2016
Drowned at 3 07 Feb 2016
The Nexus Point 07 Feb 2016
The Fall From Mr M's Racehorse 02 Feb 2016
10 Day Coma - Sees Grandfather 02 Feb 2016
Finding Spyro 01 Feb 2016
Upside Down Yet Infinitely Perfect 01 Feb 2016
My Beloved Sandy 01 Feb 2016
The Green Dually 29 Jan 2016
Come Back 28 Jan 2016
Beings 28 Jan 2016
From Pain to Total Love and Back to Pain 28 Jan 2016
By Accident 28 Jan 2016
Well The Nurses are Relieved! 28 Jan 2016
Fall on Head Gives Way to Distressing Experience 25 Jan 2016
A Bike Ride Gone 'Bad' 25 Jan 2016
The Light Felt Wonderful 26 Mar 2015
Boundary Between Darkness and Light 26 Mar 2015
My Grandmother's Prayers Saved Me 20 Mar 2015
Drugged and Raped 20 Mar 2015
Riptide Spirit Guide 16 Dec 2014
The Light Within 16 Dec 2014
Everything is Love 16 Dec 2014
NDE in Pre-Term Labor 12 Dec 2014
Three Beings of Light 12 Dec 2014
Out of Body Accident 05 Dec 2014
Traveling Through the Tunnel 05 Dec 2014
White Lotus Flower of Love 05 Dec 2014
School Bus to Heaven 02 Dec 2014
"Burned the candle at both ends" 04 Nov 2014
Grandma heard me! 23 Jun 2014
A monk at the end of the tunnel 23 Jun 2014
I was so little! 23 Jun 2014
Ancestors Care About Us and Our World 02 Jun 2014
The Halo Lady 11 Apr 2014
Wow! It's great to be alive! 24 Mar 2014
No surgeries! 23 Mar 2014
Left for dead on a pile of snow 23 Mar 2014
It's heavenly where my grandmother is 13 Jan 2014
TBI and a message for my Granny 13 Jan 2014
My grandfather saved me 10 Jan 2014
Aftereffects Show Up After 11 Years 11 Dec 2013
Met a Friend Who Didn't Realize He was Dead 11 Dec 2013
Divine Encounters 16 Aug 2013
My Mother and Sister Picked Flowers for Me 16 Aug 2013
No time existed in my heaven 16 Aug 2013
Christmas 2010 15 Aug 2013
My daughter brought special sweetness 15 Aug 2013
Emergency at 37 15 Aug 2013
The Nurse Knows... 05 Aug 2013
Two drownings in childhood 29 Jul 2013
Dancing with Gratitude 29 Jul 2013
When I was 3 (58 years ago) 19 Jul 2013
Did you go to heaven? 01 Jul 2013
Big message in a small package 01 Jul 2013
Meeting Fate Head-on 01 Jul 2013
I had a job to do 01 Jul 2013
Example From Heaven 27 Jun 2013
Aslan the cat and forgiveness 26 Jun 2013
My Mother & I 26 Jun 2013
I'm different now 26 Jun 2013
My one and only 18 Jun 2013
Not My First NDE 18 Jun 2013
A Vision 18 Jun 2013
Saved by a frightening vision 18 Jun 2013
My Son, My Light 17 Jun 2013
I'm completely different since... 14 Jun 2013
Hodgkin's Disease Respiratory Failure 14 Jun 2013
Wheel of Life 30 Apr 2013
An Experience that Changed my Life! 30 Apr 2013
My Awakening With The Angels 17 Apr 2013

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Woman, abused as infant, has NDE after-effects

When I was approximately two years old, my father looked at me one day and decided he wanted to “be the first”. He raped me as an infant. Many years later, when he was beginning to show signs of dementia, someone spoke to him about how he should treat me. His response was, “She’s my daughter and I’ll do what I want with her,” and then proceeded to tell the above story (in more graphic detail). This came back to me more than a year after that conversation, and after he had passed.

I have no conscious memory of that event from my infancy. However, I have known since my 20s that something of that nature had happened to me. I knew it because my emotional and physical responses in certain situations were classic sexual-abuse-victim reactions. I knew it because of “cellular memory”: my body knew, even though my mind didn’t. I spent many years in therapy, reading, and self-evolutionary work, trying to figure it out, trying to remember what happened to me. It wasn’t until my father’s late-life “brag” (that was his point, to demonstrate his “rights”) was relayed to me that I finally had an answer. I was then in my 50s. But I still have no conscious memory of the event.

When I started attending the Tucson IANDS presentations, I was fascinated. To know what was on the other side, to hear others’ personal accounts, was at once uplifting and reassuring, intellectually engaging and emotionally supportive. I joined IANDS, and was further delighted to start receiving their “Monthly NDE” reports. Recently I came across a couple of them that really caught my attention.

One talked about NDEs in children, written by P.M.H. Atwater. She spoke of how “children compensate”. Rather than deal with their experience, they adjust other things around it; that even into mature years, the puzzle is often not solved. They “begin abstracting (dealing with broad conceptual ideas), are smarter than their parents, school teachers, friends”. “They forever miss HOME, the greater collective they know is real.” She says 90% are unable to bond with their parents. She continues: “Typical characteristics afterward: heightened senses, vivid imagination, intellectual curiosity and drive, psychic/intuitive, loneliness, higher I.Q., deep capacity to care, great potential for an ethical path, aware of future moments, strongly independent even if shy, nonlinear development. The younger the child, the greater the jump in I.Q., [and] the ability to abstract.” They are “doers with good ideas, inventions, and the energy to get jobs done”. They have a heightened consciousness, and a tendency to nerve-stomach-skin sensitivity.

These things all represent aspects of myself. I never felt particularly close to any of my family. (I’m not even sure what “bonding” with a parent might actually be.) I never thought I was smarter than average, until I had more experience with a broader range of people – and then it became clear to me: my comments were often over the heads of other people. My thoughts and ideas were often complex and fairly advanced in logic and principle, and went unnoticed (at best) or ridiculed (at worst). I am very resourceful and can often come up with unique ways to deal with a problem or situation. I am a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP) as defined by Dr. Elaine Aron. I am intuitive and perceptive of people’s emotions and intentions. I can often “see” likely outcomes of present actions. I can often tell when someone is lying. I have a strong sense of history and how it connects everything, as well as my own participation in many time periods. I have had several Spiritually Transformative Experiences (STEs), mostly regarding my own past lives. And I have an awareness of a broader future for humanity and the planet.

A different Monthly NDE mentions the writer’s “excruciatingly painful awareness”, a “feeling of desolate isolation from my real existence”. I have always felt a deep, profound, and painful sadness, just from living on the physical plane, never feeling a part of this place, never feeling “at home”. I know things about how this life works that most other people don’t seem to be aware of, things in terms of personal interactions, repercussions, and energetic flow. At least, sometimes.

Other times I am clueless as to social norms and acceptable behaviors, or what some enigmatic comment is supposed to convey. And yet I was never able to utilize my sensitivities for anything other than personal evolution. It did not help me find jobs or friends, I never felt “successful”, either monetarily or socially. I have never had sufficient certainty of my ideas to help others by way of predictions or information regarding their own lives. All I can do is give my own thoughts and impressions as suggestions, and if they accept what I say, it may help them to understand their circumstances or make their own choices. Often, however, they do not. I sometimes feel like Cassandra of Greek mythology, cursed to give true prophecies which nobody ever believes.

In this second Monthly NDE, the writer says she has no memory of the experience, she simply “knew” that she had been on another plane of existence, and had been forced or somehow persuaded to return to her physical body. This really woke me up. “Having no memory of the experience” is the same way I describe my own sexual assault: I have no conscious memory of it, yet I “know” it happened. This led me to what felt like a revolutionary concept: perhaps I had, as a result of rape at a very early age, left my body and experienced an NDE. For reasons at which I can only guess, my memory of the physical event and my retreat out of my body – and whatever happened on the other side – had been erased. I would guess that this was done to protect me and help me survive.

The emotional pain, shyness, reluctance to socialize, constant anxiety, and fear for my protection and future have been with me as long as I can remember. I have always known that I had to take care of myself, I could rely on nobody else for my physical, mental, or emotional wellbeing. Over the course of more than 60 years, that intuition has been borne out, and continues to be true.

I have always had a deep need and respect for the truth, beyond what most others would act on, even to my own detriment in terms of money or personal cost. If you don’t have truth, I felt, you don’t have anything. My mother’s description of me, as told to the mother of a friend of mine, was “very independent”.

Despite crippling shyness, I was compelled to utilize my musical talents in singing and acting. I have a number of stomach/digestive issues, and I am physically very sensitive. (I.e., things that are very painful to me would go unnoticed by many.) I have always tried to help others, though my efforts were often misunderstood. I feel a visceral pain at cruelty or subjugation of any kind, to anyone, whether I know them or not. I have always championed the underdog in most any situation or society at large, including (especially!) the animal kingdom.

My empathic abilities seem to be very sharp, yet indistinct. I can be overwhelmed by feelings that often make no sense to me, if I happen to notice. More often, I get totally lost in the emotion and react to that, and I don’t notice that it likely comes from people or circumstances around me. This is complicated by my own, often very strong, emotions. It took me decades to realize this was happening, and I am still learning how to differentiate and identify sources (me or not-me).

I describe this laundry list of “after-effects” as the only evidence of my NDE. It may seem like I’m jumping to conclusions, but that is the nebulous nature of my attributes and abilities. I have only my intuition to go on. It may sound self-absorbed, yet that seems to be my purpose here in this lifetime. My constant goal throughout my life has been to improve myself as a human being and increase my spiritual awareness. Everything else was secondary. (I was once told by a numerologist that I was hoping to make this my last incarnation.) For the most part, the only real achievements I have made during my life have been in introspection, self-realization, and personal evolution. And perhaps those are no small achievements. So, make of it what you will. If my story helps anyone else in their own journey, that will be a whole new kind of success for me.

Greeted by vibrantly-colored spirit guides and guardian angels

I was involved in a horrific three-car motor vehicle accident on Sunday, March 8th, 2020. Doctors told me that I am fortunate to be alive and that most people involved in a head-on collision such as mine don’t survive it. 

I am writing to you in part to process what I experienced during my accident and also try to find some answers or understanding about what happened to me. 

The accident occurred in front of my eldest daughter's home. I turned on my left-hand blinker, slowed down, and noticed a white car traveling extremely close behind me. I proceeded to slow down while going East on the residential street and felt the white car hit me from behind. That caused my car to spin out of control and forced me to go over the divider into oncoming traffic proceeding Westbound where I was hit again head-on. I lost consciousness after the second impact. When my daughter approached my car she mentioned that when she first saw me after the accident my eyes were a distinctive blue-white 'haze' and a type of milky color in my eyes. She saw me slumped over the steering wheel making a gurgling sound and not breathing.  

What I saw was myself being tossed back and forth in the car with a cloud of white smoke surrounding me, which I assume was the airbag deploying, but I was not connecting with the person in the driver's seat at the time. While I was observing myself in the car, I noticed the color of the t-shirt as the most brilliant magenta color and finally realized the person in the car was me, because I specifically wore that t-shirt for comfort and it’s one of my favorite t-shirts. As I was connecting that the person in the driver seat was me, at that moment I was literally out of my physical body. Next, I observed me slumped over the steering wheel and then I felt my body floating away from the inside of my car and I started rising above my car.

I had the most incredible feeling of oneness and joy and absolutely no pain at all. I can’t really describe it, but I could see everything around me, under me, above me and behind me. While I was fascinated with this concept and trying to understand what I was experiencing I noticed there were five to six of what I believe were my guardian angels and spirit guides that were waiting for me within the most indescribable light surrounding them. The brilliant colors are hard to describe, but they were mostly orange hues with yellow streams of light behind them. The colors were so vibrant and gorgeous. It felt like they were waiting for me to attend a kind of celebration. While I was observing this amazing scene, I thought of my family and instantly with great force and speed I was sucked back into my body, gasping for air, and started feeling the most excruciating pain. 

After eight weeks of recovering, I have gained a new perspective on life. I can honestly say I feared death and the unknown before my accident, but due to my experience, I have lost the fear of death. I have a new sense of what my purpose is and my spirituality has strengthened. I also tended to be a bit shy and not speak up or express myself; however, I found my voice and now have the ability to express my feelings more often. I am a doula and I cherish serving babies and their families and yet again it’s given me an increased awareness to serve and love my family and friends more often. 

Young mother drowns in sailing accident

It was a windy day for sailing our 18’ “Flying Dutchman” sailboat with 3 onboard, my husband at tiller, his father (crew) and I was attached to a “trapeze” for ballast.  My harness was velcroed to my waist with a “quick release” toggle (the trapeze wire was attached to top of mast).

My husband asked his dad to lean back for more ballast as a gust hit our sails. Dad leaned forward and the boat capsized, and I found myself trapped under 15’ of water.   My harness would not disconnect. I panicked and expelled all my air (after about 30 seconds of struggling with the harness).  I also clearly remember I sucked in a lot of water in my lungs and shortly after gave up fighting my drowning and “gave in” to death.  

At that point I vividly remember seeing a white light. I felt absolutely calm, happy, eager to join the other dying people going to the light. I felt family members (ie, Grandmother, Grandfather) with me, helping me, guiding me.  I remember other souls, more white in appearance and winged (ie, angels) helping me.  As I approached the end of this tunnel to the light, I heard a clear male voice say to me, “Go back, it’s not your time, you have a son to take care of.” My son was about a year old at the time.

Those words jarred me back to my bad situation but gave me strength to fight some more, and at the same time my husband began to dive down with a mouthful of air to “buddy breathe” me to wellness.  He also got my harness to release (on third dive down), and I bolted to the water's surface to find I was under the boat, breathing stale air!  I dove down again, through ropes and sails, to finally reach the surface to breathe “that blue air.”

I was under the water for almost 3 minutes, according to my husband and his father.

I will never forget this NDE and feel blessed to know how pleasant the next stage will be (after my death).  I am not afraid, have experienced a few close calls with my health since then, still not afraid. I also believe and read and practice constantly spirituality, meditation, compassion, etc., trying to make sense of this event.

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