After an Accident


I was the driver of a car with my sister as the passenger. We had a dreadful accident and rolled the car numerous times. My sister was seriously injured and I came away relatively unscathed, apart from shock and a terrible sense of guilt and concern for my sister. (She is fine now.) I had an experience during the days following the accident. I don't remember what I was doing at the time. I remember it came to me as clear as yesterday and has remained with me for life. The experience was just a split second of clarity, less than a blink of an eye. Yet, in that millisecond the experience contained a message as old as the universe.

I was given the gift of perfect, holistic clarity of the Universe. I truly believe it was a gift from God, Buddah, or something. In this blink of time I knew that every atom, person, animal, star, and plant had a purpose. I can only describe the picture in my mind as a giant jigsaw puzzle. It was fragmented but warm, comforting and all knowing. I had often wondered why bad things and cruelty in the world happened in life. I had no answers and often questioned the existence of a higher power. In that moment, I completely understood there is a purpose for everthing in the Universe. It was such a comfort to me.

I did not intellectualize the experience nor did I discuss it with anyone. I did not feel the need. It was just a knowing. It is so difficult to express, but I know it happened. The experience just came out of the blue and has affected my entire life. There is no need for fear or sadness as there is a purpose for everything in the universe. Everything is perfectly okay. Live a good life. Do the best you can. Be kind. There really is light at the end of the tunnel. I hold this close to my heart every day.

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