Watching Myself Struggle


I was on a rafting trip with friends when we came upon heavy rapids. We tried to avoid them, but were sucked into the whirlpool. My raft capsized and I was sucked under the water for about 20 seconds, the first time. I popped out and was then pulled down again for about 30 seconds. I started to panic, fearing death by drowning. I popped out again and was thrown against a rock only to be pulled down again.

At that time, my spirit was out of my body and I was watching myself struggle under the water. At first I was afraid, but almost at the same time I felt a calm all over me. I was at the same level in the water, about six feet from my body, watching myself and two of the other people who were struggling under the water. I believe this continued for about 30 seconds until I was once again thrown against a rock. When I hit the rock for the final time, my spirit popped back into my body. Since this experience I have a better understanding of life and my personal purpose.

Last Updated ( Friday, 01 February 2008 12:24 )

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