There was an almost immediate out of body. It felt as if I was two to three times normal height and I could see through the walls. Later, either during surgery or during the three days that followed, I had an experience that I know was real, not a dream.
I found myself in what seemed to be a huge cavern, probably what you would consider to be a void. I was crouched behind what seemed to be a boulder and was watching two figures. My eyes felt like they were literally as big as saucers but I did not feel afraid, just very alone. The figures were in black, hooded cloaks similar to those of the ring wraiths in the Lord of the Rings. I did not feel like they were evil. One of them approached the other one and was floating. They did not appear to have feet or at least were not using them. There was no sound of any kind but I KNEW that they were discussing me and deciding what to do.
I came back with the feeling that I am supposed to be here. However, I didn't get the feeling of a great purpose or important work to accomplish, just a sense that things would not evolve the way they were supposed to if I didn't live out this life. I never felt as if I were being judged. It was more like they were reviewing the outcomes of sending me on or back. And you can see which one they chose (lol).
I really feel a need to emphasize that even though I know that there is something important about me being here still, I have no feelings of self-importance but rather quite the opposite. Since then it is my belief that we all, even the most vicious criminals, have a reason for being here. Even if the only thing I do in my life (that positively affects the future) is to smile at a stranger who was going to do something negative but decides against it, then my life made a difference.
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