A Choice to Continue or Return

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Third day post op pulmonary embolism (not correctly diagnosed for three more days). In the middle of the night while sleeping I experienced an incapacitating pain like being stabbed and was unable to breathe. I floated in a tunnel filled with spirits. My distinct impression was that my grandmother was there.

I was given a choice to continue down the tunnel towards a light. The feeling was blue light to the other side of life or to return to my body. I was told that if I woke up I would be very ill and have great pain for a while. I had a discussion with the beings about just having had my second child and staying would mean leaving the children for my husband to raise. I decided to return as leaving would not be fair to the children. 

I awakened and called for assistance. I spent the next few weeks in the ICU. I did not speak about this experience for several years after.

 

Last Updated ( Wednesday, 01 February 2006 11:52 )

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